|ben howard - only love|
*this is not a crafty, sewey type post*
do you believe that everything happens for a reason? in the space of three months everything i was certain of changed, nothing is how it was. why? the never ending question, of course i know the reason why, but that doesn't mean that it's not hard. right now i feel like i'm peddling in mud, no matter how hard i try, i don't get anywhere, i'm stuck and can't manage to get past this point and i really am trying because i don't want to feel this way. when does it get easier? i know that it's never 'easy' but i didn't think it would be this difficult, surely there has to be easy times where everything just works and for that time everything is just 'right' it all falls into place, because right now its hard, its too hard and i want it to stop, i can't handle it.
i want to look back in six months/ a year from now and see if i let it defeat me or if in fact it has got easier, right now its defeating me.