Wednesday 20 March 2013

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ben howard - only love

*this is not a crafty, sewey type post*

do you believe that everything happens for a reason? in the space of three months everything i was certain of changed, nothing is how it was. why? the never ending question, of course i know the reason why, but that doesn't mean that it's not hard. right now i feel like i'm peddling in mud, no matter how hard i try, i don't get anywhere, i'm stuck and can't manage to get past this point and i really am trying because i don't want to feel this way. when does it get easier? i know that it's never 'easy' but i didn't think it would be this difficult, surely there has to be easy times where everything just works and for that time everything is just 'right' it all falls into place, because right now its hard, its too hard and i want it to stop, i can't handle it.

i want to look back in six months/ a year from now and see if i let it defeat me or if in fact it has got easier, right now its defeating me.

rachael x


8 comments:

  1. Oh dear. Not sure what you are dealing with, but I will remember you in my prayers.
    Hopefully you WILL look back in six months and realize you beat this thing .

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  2. Sorry to hear things are so tough at the moment..... take lots of time for yourself, I am sure when you look back you will see that you have survived, and are stronger - big hugs xx

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  3. sometimes when you're in the middle of something tough, you think it's impossible to find a way through, but you will and be stronger for it. I can't promise you that life gets easier as you get older - the key is to use each challenge to learn from and grow. hugs x

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  4. What Moria says is so true. Stop striving and 'be' as often time works things out for you. Just get through a day at a time... You will get stronger but it takes time. Thinking of you. Di x

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  5. Again agreeing with Moira, I had a bit of a traumatic childhood then hated being at uni and now I can't think of one thing I would change, stuff will start getting better soon for you, and you can always email me if you want to chat.

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  6. Aw Rachel, so sorry you are in a dark place at the mo. If you ever want a coffee & a chat, just give me a ring. Jxo

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  7. Stay strong and press in. Whatever your challenge at the moment , it will make you stronger. Thinking of you.

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  8. Rachel you do not know me but I have been in that place before,I pray it will get better for you as it did for me...time healed me x

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